A reassuring decade

I turned 30 in January. Unmarried, no children, no dog, no mortgage, no boyfriend. This is not the 30 I had planned for myself.

Two months into 30, what I do have is  an incredible sense of self, confidence, an unapologetic attitude, a willingness to say no, and much more. With certainty, I am the best version of myself so far.

The past creeps in, sure. The triggers trigger. But the tools have been tested, the repair is more efficient and the recovery is quicker. I have taken myself apart and put myself back together so many times, so, so many times. I know how I work and I have a better idea of what works.

I don’t feel like ‘it’s all downhill from here’–I feel the exact opposite. I am being positioned to do exactly what it is I was put on earth for –whatever that will be, and I am confident even though I have no clear idea what my purpose is.

I’m a confident 30. I’m not worried at all. My time will come and when it comes, I will be ready.



3 thoughts on “A reassuring decade

  1. 🙂 I definitely did not get to this point over night. It took years. I envisioned a very specific life that I would have by the time I was 26. I struggled for over four years too. It came in little bits: realizing I wanted something else, something more, growing, identifying my needs—the letting go part came at the end of a very rough road. The point of realization/revelation is different for everyone. Just like all those things (getting married, having kids) happen at different times for different people. Enjoy what whatever you have going on, and happy early birthday! ❤

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